Is like staring at a blue sky covering serene waters
After six years of struggle, the white flag is finally being raised and peace is sowly sinking in, healing my heart. Hugging and asking me come home to life. It felt like forever, when I was wondering where and who I was. Swimming, and lost in time, in self. It was forever when the thirst for writing was burried and sileneced. I’d be dead if I don’t come home to life now. I can’t stay dead forever. Not from this. And not from me. I was running for a long time trying to keep up with life. I kept running and running. Until I forgot why I was running. But I just had to keep running. Then I lost myself and everything became a chaos of failures, disappointments, hope, struggle, fighting, love and more struggle.
It seemed unending - journeying as a college student. The road has finally stopped. Suddenly it’s not a crossroad in front of me. But a mesh of superhighways crisscrossing here and there. I would understand if I’d feel lost now. But I am not. My feet are happily standing still on the ground looking at opportunities, dreams and the future. I have a resolve I intend to live by. I will still live by it - that I will live for the things that truly matter and for the people who are important to me.
I want to write again. Draw again. Colour manga panels. Sing and play the guitar. I want to live again. It’s about time. Life is sweet and it’s a good thing to be alive!
