How do you let go of someone who never even had the chance to say goodbye?
I was working on my organic chemistry problems about a quarter past 1 am earlier today. I had an exam to accomplish in a few hours. Not a single soul was alive except for a lunatic that was dancing in the middle of a mute night. That was I, with my headphones isolating me from the sleeping world. After a few minutes of headbangin' I found myself scribbling words that had nothing to do with hydroxylation or stereochemistry.
Soft tiny streams stroked down my face one after the other. My clueless nose started sniffing back fluids that tell of an unforgiving sadness. The kind that only time can measure.
The kind that reminds you how this life is beyond you. That loving cannot promise you a painless story. That death is real.
It's been two months since that longest weekend of my life. I thought I've had enough tears shed over it already. The memory of him lifelessly breathing through an intubator keeps me drifting to that hollow place where I cannot win. I keep stumbling at my knees every time I come to that point when it says "Let go".
He didn't even say goodbye. Until now I keep asking him to stay inside my memory. Every bit of memory that I can keep. Because that's the only way for me to keep him. And I don't think I can even start to face the truth of letting go.
dal, that guy was Gael Garcia Bernal. my ex. LOL! thanks fer dropping by. and yeah, i guess i’ve moved in quite comfortably here.. but i’m still blog-host searchin’. Hmmm… live well xD
Posted by kimtot at November 13, 2007, 1:22 pmAll comments are moderated. Your comments will not appear here unless approved by the blog owner. Thank you.
Dear Kim, I hope you’ll write again. I miss reading you. 
hello! just blog hopping from tinay’s blog.
hi hi~~
love your posts,,you’re an awesome writer..
btw ok lng ba link ko yung blog?thanks~~
hi coriander,thanks for visiting. i already linked u up:)
hi coriander, woww ang galing mong magsulat.is it ok if i’ll link you to my blog?thanks
Hi! Please do visit my blog @ indeliblenonsense.blogspot.com
ako pod mar.. hehehe
kimoi! dugay nko wla ka visit dri.. ahehehe
bloghop from http://janisvg.blogspot.com & http://foodiesfoodtrip.blogspot.com
tol, kinsa ni gatawag nako amaw? haha. oi hilom ko kaayo in person 
naa pa koy utang nimo no?
kimz! kimoi! kikay! kikoy! kokay! kimoi! kimat! kimai! keme! kemz!.
IKAW HAP!
amaw2x ka tinay!., ahahaha! pis., halu kimoie! –,
tol, nabuang akong comment publishing
ahem. hi crushes. pwede ta threesome? 
mura jud mo ug lover. oist, di ta magkita this christmas or new year. di na mi kaadto sa inyong hardware store kay diri ra mi sa cebu - lisud travel na bibi. 
P.S mura jud mo ug uyab ni tinay. pagbantay ana niya. nahan pud na siya ug babay. hahaha.
kimaykiat, haha. dili na ko ka ym kung buntag. oi tawa ko sa imong mga comments. murag labers ta. pahipo nga bebe 
send me the song! puweeeaasee
ate chin, daghan kaayong salamat. you inspire me to write.
@tinay, nuuuude? LOL! T_T…
vonskie, maraming salamat sa pagvisit.
iskagero, link na din kita.
sa lahat, *grins*
salamat kimay oi you have to see my nude pics naungas na. amping 666!
hello, just dropping by to say kumusta?
ok ok so your a bloggerl i know. anyway who is that guy on the right side of the page? jeje bitaw well i guess you’ve found a new nook here cool colors, well i see you’ve moved in quite completely =) keep writing ate kimy/buds got to get back to my book jeje
Posted by bepven at July 22, 2007, 8:58 pmvisit you next time
-virgo